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In the past I have only come here to get various pills identified. I am reaching out for some advice here now as some of you may be, or be affiliated with a physician or psychiatrist. 

I think I am may be depressed, or have a form of manic depression that leans as forward as schizophrenia.

I experience symptoms prevalent with all three of these, although all symptoms do not match up, or if I am close to one of those disorders, I feel that there is another symptom that excludes me from one of them, namely being heavyset and being manic depressive, I beleive I am more depressive but have some symptoms similar to those in the manic side of the disorder. 

Aside from having irregular sleeping habits, eating habits, I also have internal mood swings, panic attacks, wandering ideas, and to a lesser extent voices, and hallucinations. 

There have been several tell-tell sings that led me to believe I may need to seek mental help. Thoughts of suicide, murder, rape, kidnapping have all occured out through this day, and most everday for that matter.

 I often get so wracked with worry that I just lay in the bed and shake, or I drift off into space completely oblivious to my surrounding, which has even appeared while driving.

Also, this has just come to my attention and wasn't included on a series of past write ups of how I feel , I have a series of motor neuron nervous ticks, which happen when I get nervous or think about a series of thoughts from my past, including people I knew a length of time ago, or when I flex certain muscle groups in my body, chiefly my lower back and surrounding regions.

The reason I am here posting this to you is so you can advise me on speeking with a psychiatrist, psychologist, or a physician. I have a limited supply of anti-depressants, which I believe to be anti-psychotics because I have used them to alleviate bad trips from psychedelic drugs such as lysergic acid diethylmide, or psilocybin mushrooms (although I have used drugs, and used drugs as frequently as once or twice a month (when referring to pychedelics/ hallucenigenics) I don't beleieve this has much if anything to do with my condition because these feelings and moods were present years before I took part in any such of the aforementioned substances. The anti-depressants/psychotics alluded to in this passage are: Prozac, Eskalith, and Amitriptyline.

 I also have read a small bit on Lexapro and on Sereoquel which both seem to treat my symptoms although are apparently differnt conditions. Lexapro for depression and Sereoquel for manic/depression, schizophrenia.

I am familar to a certain extent with these five drugs and I wanted to talk about them with a doctor, but I am afraid that if I mention the drugs the doctor may think I am only interested in that one specific thing, and write me a presciption for something else eventhough the drug i was interested in was more suited to my condition.

I am also afraid that he make think I am only seeking drugs, however I hope to avoid that as I don't recall anyone getting high off of these kinds of drugs. 

Please if you have pointers for speaking with a health care professional, or if you know something from first hand experience, or if you yourself are a doctor of anything related to this matter, or you are an assistant to a health care professional of anything to this matter, please feel free to offer up your advice, write a little something, or send me a message/e-mail with any informaton you have to offer.

I'm all ears and would love to know what you all think about any of this, my beliefs, problems, or methods of going about this, because I am a novice when it comes to these types of medication, and how to speak to certain types of doctors because it is very hard to know and explain when you are these kinds of sick.