PLease help!!!!!!!!!!!

OK, I can't believe I am telling this. Not even my wife of 4 years knows anything of it. The only people that knows I am on them are, the pharmicst and my doctor. I really need to quit. I started 7 years ago with 5/500 lortab at 30 each month. I am now up to 90 10/500 lortab a month, and wash them down on an empty stomach with nyquil 3 times a day. I am now up to a bottle of nyquil a day. I knew I had hit bottom when I found a Oxycontin on the bathroom floor of the hospital in which I work and and swallowed it. I have let so many things go, my life is torn apart by these pills. THe only joy I get out of life is knowing that 2-3 times a day I can pop a pil and relax. My life revolves around my "sessions" I know I am destroying my liver by taking nyquil and APAP on an empty stomach. I really want to kick this habit, but I don't want to tell my wife, I have no support.

any ideas??

please help!!